Caffeine IV?

I dont know if anyone even reads this still, but thought I would write and say Im sorry for being M.I.A lately. Ive been really busy, between working out, working, the kids, dinner, laundry, dishes, and well.........life!
Not much to write about, I just figured I would stop by and visit my lonely blog. I promise I will have stuff to write about soon.......and maybe by next Monday Ill have another Not Me Monday, since I missed it this week (kinda like.....AHEM...... my bloggy friend LANA over @ The Kids Did WHAT!) She's also been MIA for awhile now, and I miss her!!
Ok, so now that I have bored you to literal tears I am going to bed to get some much needed sleep......night all!

1 Week down.....Nothing tastes as good as thin feels......repeat.......

I have had the most tiring but inspiring week! I started working out last Monday, and I have run/walked/worked out everyday since then (ok, I lied, I took Mother's Day off, but that it, I swear!) I actually feel pretty good, and as tired as I get after being at the gym, somehow I am getting more stamina, and work through the tiredness to keep going thru the day. I dont consider myself to have an obsessive nature, but apparently I do.........first it was with food, but now it seems to be with working all that food off. I think I have a pretty happy attitude by nature, but I have missed out on truly enjoying life, because I let food control who I am, what I wore, and where I went. I WANT to be able to go to the store, see a cute shirt and just pull it off the rack, and wear ANY color I want. For years now (and I mean probably 13 or more) I have worn almost all black, because I was ashamed of what had become of my body. I was always skinny, I was a size 6 in 1995, and by 2003 I was in the double digits pant sizes. Almost 2 yrs ago I decided to eat a little healthier and I managed to lose almost 40 lbs, and keep it off, but I still have about that much to lose, and maybe more.
This blog wasnt started to be a weight loss blog, but thats just where it might be heading........

Oh my aching ........legs

I knew I would be sore this morning, I just didnt know how sore I would be. ug. HOWEVER.......I am very proud of myself and still did a 25-30 minute brisk walk when I got the kids all off to school this morning. for once in my life I feel like this is IT. I need to do this for my health and for my own self esteem. Of course, it doesnt help when people say "you dont need to lose weight" HA HA!! very funny!! I must hide my weight well sometimes, because I still need to lose about 65 lbs and I still wouldnt be stick skinny, but I would be "normal".
Im going back to Booty camp tomorrow, I may not make it out alive.....so wish me luck!!

Not Me Monday

Not Courtesy of McKmamma over at my charming kids


1. I did not go to "Booty Camp" this morning, and I did not have more fun that I expected.

2. I did not avoid running with everyone else so they would not see my big butt shake.

3. I was not paranoid about my body the whole time, not feeling like a bull in a china shop.

4. I did not feel like throwing up a couple times during class.

5. I did not take the easy route and use 2 and 3 pound weights, while everyone else did not use 5 pounds and up.

6. I am not looking forward to the next class, because I felt so good not doing things for my health.

Ok, so these are not very good today.......but class was fun and Im ready for more (I think) hehe

shake shake shake......

shake your bootay........
Im having a much better day today, I dont know what my problem was yesterday, but anywho.......got up this morning and went and picked the kids up at my Aunt's house at 9. Then we spent a few hours at home outside. I got a YMCA membership, so we decided to go swimming for a couple hours when they opened at noon. I even stripped down and went swimming, and did some laps in the big pool, what a workout!! It was the first real exercise my body has seen in a um.........long ass time. The YMCA has this class called "Fitness boot camp" 3 times a week.......my ass is sooo there tomorrow!! I just started working nights, so I have no kids during the day, and Im going to start working on myself!! so excited! cant wait!

Pissed off

Thats me today, so I wont be writing anything worth reading. blah. Apparently I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, because Ive been in a shitty mood all day, which is not my normal thing, its something I am not used to.